The Story Behind ALL the Tests....

 On the morning of December 9th (that sounded so cheesy;) I decided to take my second pregnancy test (I got a negative 3 days prior). I thought it was negative again, but I decided to take it to the window, to the natural light, JUST to make sure. After turning it to every angle and examining it for 5 minutes, sure enough, there was the faintest plus sign you could possibly have. Luckily, I still had the negative test I took a few days earlier to compare, and there was definitely a FAINT, FAINT line. 

My heart started pounding and I could not concentrate to finish getting ready. Thankfully, I had a workshop that morning and not 24 little 9 year olds depending on me, because I could not think straight! I told myself to wait and tell Lee when he got home that evening so it would be special. I always call him on my way to work every morning and when he answered I  just could not hold it back. I blurted out, "I THINK I GOT A POSITIVE!" Bless his heart, he had an office full of men, so he was trying to whisper. I told him not to get too excited, because I wanted him to look at it to make sure I wasn't hallucinating! When trying to have a baby you tend to imagine lines are there so a second opinion is always important;)

There were days I had "that feeling" and different things happening that led me to think I was, but I would not let myself get my hopes up. Lee thought the whole time this was our month!

It still did not sink in and I TRIED not to get myself TOO excited (which is almost impossible). The next morning, WELLLL, actually about 3:00 in the morning, I woke up and could not get it off of my mind so I HAD to take another test. I sat there a while and waited but the test looked negative. I went back to bed and Lee asked me, I told him I think it is negative. My heart was broken, my stomach was in knots, and it took my a few hours to fall back asleep.

I went to get the test to throw away the next morning and sure enough that FAINT, FAINT line had appeared. My hopes were back up and of course, told Lee immediately.  But still tried not to let myself believe it.

We went on about our Saturday, talking about babies throughout the day. Of course, I could not get it off of my mind. After church on Sunday, we went to eat at Firebird's and stopped by Walgreens on our way home to pick up the BIG BOYS! I needed that digital confirmation! 

Sure enough, I took it when I got home and PREGNANT popped on the screen within seconds. I could finally believe it, Lord willing, we were going to be parents!!!!!

Days following I would take a test, skip a day, and take another test. I just needed that reassurance.(Slightly OCD too!;) I never dreamed I would see that positive pregnancy test. No reason really, I have feared since a little girl of not being able to have children.

On that Monday, I called to make my appointment. I already had an appointment for testing, so she let me keep it!! I started ordering baby reveal items I have always had in mind so we would be ready to tell our big news! (Which I will post about soon;) In my mind, I HAD to hear the heartbeat before telling everyone, so Lee and I kept it our little secret for a while, which was EXTREMELY hard considering it was CHRISTMAS! 

Like I said I am slightly OCD and have a plan for a plan and a list for a list. Being a teacher, the "ideal" plan was to have a summer baby, but God had plans for us to have a baby in August, RIGHT when school starts!!!! That's OK though because if He had allowed MY planning to take place, I  would be a 9 month pregnant bridesmaid or not even present at one of my best friend's wedding!That being said, His PLAN is perfect and we over the moon HAPPY and THANKFUL He chose us to be the parents of this little miracle.
So there is the little story behind the 8 test, sadly, I threw a way about 3! OOPS;) 

I know it looks like I have been slacking on blogging, but I have really been doing "behind the scenes" blogging. ;) I have a post about how we revealed our BIG NEWS to our families as well as weekly bumpdates coming soon!

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Have a BLESSED Wednesday!